You are what I don't understand but love...

disabled to feel
disabled to be noticed...
disabled to appear....

tell me what you feel
tell me what you see

i've been out of myself for too long
many years have passed without being myself

please be my guide...
be my early edition

let me know what's real
i need to feel you
i need to know the truth

but the only truth is that we're both a lie
we live lying, we keep on lying, we can't avoid it
'cause our truth doesn't exist in our bodies
we're lying to the world,
puking on it's truth...
knowing what's not real...

the only reality is your bite, your bites, your singing, this rain
it won't ever stop...

this is not for real...
you are not for real...
reality is in the sun...
everybody burns like we do...

please let us be two ice cubes...
never fading, never melting... never warming
always in the out-cold or in the fridge
hidden from everything that could warm our hearts

i'll guide you....
i'll guide you through my desperation
my orientation is caving in, deeper and deeper... and will never be seen...

i'll let you be my eyes...
blind for you sight,
for the lovely brown caves that stare at me, everytime i discover them in me

don't...
please... don't be this necessary for me...
i love you still...
i cannot live...
you are my senses...
i can be defined as human since you're with me....

without you i'm nothing....
you're not my placebo, you're my everlasting salvation...


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Warning: do not be like this, it's an exageration of an overrated reality... do not get obsessed... just fall in love... dreams are to be dreamt, live for the rest of your days... but first... you've got to learn what "TO LIVE" means...
I tend to take my feelings to unbearable situations, extremes... if I don't do this, my writing is not funny/interesting/worthless. It's just an exercise to be happy with my "ART"....
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do you see me as a rainbow warrior?
"hungry for you love, with no way to feed it" (another god... Jeff Buckley)
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Ps/Pd: si encuentran errores, haganmelo saber, por favor, hace demasiado que no compongo en inglés...